MAKE THE BEST DECISIONS YOU CAN AND DON'T LOOK BACK

When it comes to making decisions about the health of your child, gather all the information you can, make the best decision for your reasons and don't look back. Your decision was the 'right' decision under the circumstances.
It's too easy to question yourself after the fact and think another decision would have been better.
Doing that is useless because you can't change your decisions and reverse time. There are no guarantees in life and all we can do is what we think is best at the time...and move forward from there.
I caught myself questioning my decision of allowing the surgeons to pressure me, for their reasons, to operate on my daughter when she was less than a day old. I knew beforehand they would have to operate at some point, but I didn't realize it would be so quickly.
I got a call from the surgical team when she was 15 hours old to allow them to operate and push her liver and bowel (omphalocele) back inside her tummy. They thought she was only going to be somewhat stable for a little while and they needed to act now.
I would rather them just do it and tell me about it afterwards because if she didn't make it I would never have forgiven myself.
Today at almost 5 years old she still has tummy issues, has a feeding tube and takes medications 3 times a day. So I question myself if I had said 'no' and forced the surgeons to let her grow a little more before operating that maybe she wouldn't have any issues at all today.
I try not to do that though because I understand it isn't helpful...onward.
So here's my point and I'm gonna stick to it.
Make the best decision you can for your child under the circumstances and look forward to the next 'right' decision in getting your child well.
And don't forget to keep smiling!