Life in general is crazy enough and when you are dealing with a sick child we sometimes forget or don't allow ourselves to vent.
For me I didn't allow myself to vent my emotions because I perceived that as weak...I was wrong. By letting your emotions out you prove your strength. You show that you understand what you need to do in order to keep your control and you are confident in yourself to release those emotions and step back up to the plate.
As alway I seem to learn lessons the hard way by keeping my feelings/worries/emotions pretty much to myself these past 5 and a half years , in regards to dealing with my Zarrah's serious health issues.
That was not the right way to do it because I never dealt with my strong emotions when they arose. I tried to be tough and being a little stubborn doesn't help. And now I've realized I have to go back to Day 1 and re-live things...so that I can deal with my emotions...because if I don't I will never be able to close that door and the wound will just keep on opening. And that is one of the worst feelings for me...not know when that caged emotion is going to pounce.
And as I am experiencing right now, it is much more difficult to let emotions go that have had time to fester...than to deal with the new, raw hurt immediately.
So don't be afraid to release your emotions when you are experiencing them. Why??? Because it's the right thing to do...
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